Civil Rights · Human Rights · Intersex Activist · Intersex Awareness · Intersex Erasure · Relationships · Short Messages

Stop Erasing us.

It is always interesting to me how some people would rather end a relationship, and sometimes end a long term friendship, than try to find in their hearts room for another type of person or culture. I become raw with it all.
It doesn’t matter even if they are blood and family. It doesn’t matter of they are lesbian, gay, bisexual or transgender. The rainbow does not always agree. I assure you! I have actually had an easier time changing the hearts of fanatical Christians, than the hearts of an LGBT person that depends heavily on a male/female gender binary to justify their existence.
I lived your reality for 46 years, and it almost killed me. I refuse to agree with this delusional world, when it comes to gender. Yes, to me it is a delusion, if it erased my right to exist in this world.
It’s societies turn to change. I am done conforming to a world that literally erased my right to exist, when I was standing in front of you! No, it doesn’t take an “open mind”; it takes common sense. If your mind is closed or not doesn’t matter to me. More like, OPEN YOUR EYES! When you open your eyes, you are no longer allowed to call me a disorder! How else do you describe my existence? The male/female binary is a social construct. It is not even based on good science if it is harming innocent children born intersex to this world.
I stand my ground. I change culture now so that little kids born like me have a place in society. WAKE UP WORLD! It is time to stop erasing us, mutilating us, aborting us, devaluing us, and outcasting us!
I long for that world that celebrates our birth. www.anunnakiray.com
Sincerely, Mx. Anunnaki Ray
Poems · Prejudice

Poem: SHAKE IT OFF!

 

SHAKE IT OFF! 

You say there are only two genders.

Go ahead and deny We exist when We stand in front of you

Educating you

Teaching you

Some ears can not hear!

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You say there are only two genders.

Go ahead and deny We exist when We stand in front of you

Educating you

Teaching you

Some eyes can not see!

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You say there are only two genders.

Go ahead and deny We exist when We stand in front of you

Educating you

Teaching you

Some hearts can not feel!

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And I am just going to just “shake it off”.  

Haters are going to hate!  

It’s going to be alright! 

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By Mx. Anunnaki Ray 
May 18, 2017 
United Nations’ Intersex Fact Sheet

 

This Poem is Dedicated to “Shake It Off” (Metal Cover By Leo Moracchioli).

The original done by Taylor Swift: 

Lyrics:  Shake It Off
I stay out too late, got nothing in my brain
That’s what people say, that’s what people say
I go on too many dates, but I can’t make them stay
At least that’s what people say, that’s what people say
But I keep cruising
Can’t stop, won’t stop moving
It’s like I got this music in my mind
Saying it’s gonna be alright
Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play
And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate
Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
Heartbreakers gonna break, break, break, break, break
And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake
Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
I never miss a beat, I’m lightning on my feet
And that’s what they don’t see, that’s what they don’t see
I’m dancing on my own, I make the moves up as I go
And that’s what they don’t know, that’s what they don’t know
But I keep cruising
Can’t stop, won’t stop grooving
It’s like I got this music in my mind
Saying it’s gonna be alright
Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play
And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate
Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
Heartbreakers gonna break, break, break, break, break
And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake
Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
Hey, hey, hey!
Just think while you’ve been getting down and out about the liars
And dirty, dirty cheats of the world you could’ve been getting down to this sick beat
My ex-man brought his new girlfriend
She’s like, “oh my God”, but I’m just gonna shake
And to the fella over there with the hella good hair
Won’t you come on over, baby, we can shake, shake, shake
Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play
And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate
Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
Heartbreakers gonna break, break, break, break, break
And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake
Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I shake it off, I shake it off
Songwriters: Taylor Swift / Max Martin / Karl Johan Schuster
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Questions and Answers · Short Messages

I am finally writing my life story.

Dear followers, 
I want to let you know that if you follow this blog, I won’t be writing as much here for the time being.  
I am finally writing my life story and it will obviously be taking up much of my time now. 
A big thank you to those who follow me.   Be patient, more to come soon!   If you would like to write me, please do so by contacted me at e-mail:  anunnakiray@outlook.com  
Sincerely,
Mx. Anunnaki Ray 

 

 

Civil Rights · Gender Nonconforming · Intersex Awareness · Questions and Answers · Relationships · Self-Determination

Why when I go to the Emergency Room I mark Both the male and female box.

It is important to understand that for me, being born in the middle as intersex, I need to be medically and socially recognized, as both male and female, to get the proper care I might be needing if I show up at the hospital emergency room, or have to be hospitalized.

First of all, my body is not that of a typical dyadic female or dyadic male.  It is typical for a person born with natural intersex variations.  That is because my biological sex is intersex.  I have not been operated on, and my reproductive system, and genitals have not been altered.  So, my doctors need to know that when examining me, or if I am having problems with my reproductive system, they are going to see things that are not typical.  For example, my ovaries do not appear typical at all when viewed by ultrasound or CAT scan and my skeleton/pelvis is not that of a dyadic women.  I have strange looking ovaries, but am not in pain unless I was ovulating and that was acceptable to me since I wanted to keep my fertility.  Many experts have seen ovaries and immediately suggest that I must be in pain all the time and need immediately surgery, now that I appear a man.  I also have other atypical things going on within my reproductive system, that have never became a medical emergency.  I refuse to have surgery if I am not in pain.  If my ovaries are ok, they will remain in my body to continue to release the natural hormones they were created to do the job for.  I do not have body dysphoria, and want my genitals and reproductive system to be left alone.

Second, my gender, and how I feel my personality to be, is very non-conforming.   Socially I need to be respected as being intersex too.  I may appear either a female or a male in my mannerisms, and my appearance.  My body is very androgynous and it can sometimes confuses people.   I am often mixed up as being transgender even.   Since I am a 46 XX intersex person, that appears a man to this world now, they need to know that too, and that I want to hear male pronouns, or neutral pronouns.  That just because my chromosomes say I am a “girl”, doesn’t mean I am a girl. I am an androgynous, inter-gender, non-conforming male, and have genitals that are not typical to either a typical male or a female.

Third, I legally changed my gender marker to male on my driver’s license, but purposely kept my legal name my birth name, Antoinette.   My birth certificate remains the same as when I was born too.  So, when they see me, they see a female legal name, and a male gender marker.  This immediately honors who I truly am, and they are then I ask them to use my nickname, to address me, since I obviously do not relate to being an “Antoinette” anymore.  Those nicknames being “Ant”, or “Nnaki”.  I also prefer that they use Mx., instead of Mr. or Mrs.  I have never had problems with them honoring this.

Last, I will not be changing my birth certificate to male.  I want to wait until I get the right to change it to intersex.   Right now I do not have that legal ability to do that easily.  I am waiting for this country to catch up so it will not be such a battle. I greatly appreciate those intersex activist that are making this a possible reality in the future for all of us!

Related Blogs:

The two of us, born intersex and named ‘Antoinette’ at our birth.

Seven Names for the SAME thing: Penis, Phallus, Clitoris, Phalloclitoris, Micropenis, Microphalus, and Clitoromegaly.

Mx. Anunnaki Ray and They, Them, Their.

Why did I name myself Anunnaki Ray?

The male/female binary is a Myth!

Here is the United Nations’ Intersex Fact Sheet

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Emancipation · Freedom · Human Rights · Intersex Awareness · Self-Determination

Once assigned female: I am very proud to be a little man now!

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Sharing my thoughts for today, and something that might surprise you!
Lots of guys might have shame being a shorter stature. According to statistics a man is “short”, if they come in under 5’7″ in the USA. I am 5’5″! I have absolutely no shame or body dysphoria. I know I am fortunate that way!
So many people with non-conforming bodies, and atypical genitals are not so fortunate. Be it if we are born intersex with natural bodily variations, or call ourselves transgender, this world can be a cruel cold place for those of us who have bodies that do not conform to “typical”.  This sometimes creates body dysphoria and gender dysphoria.  If you are wondering what intersex is, please go to this link:  United Nations’ Intersex Fact Sheet.
Being raised the wrong gender, as female, all my life, I have had this obsession over shorter men. More than likely because I was taught at three and four that I was not allowed to be a boy.  It would not be until the last two years of my life that I figured out that I had been lied to!
Starting as a young teen, I even memorized the names of famous, short statured, male actors and rock stars even!  As an unusual teenager posters of some of these shorter men were tacked onto my pink bedroom walls.   Well, obviously you could see why I had this short man obsession!  Now that I appear a little dude, and legally so!   I am absolutely celebrating my life more!
My entire existence has improved!  I have a life now!  I sadly lived the majority of my life with major depression, and being tormented by psychiatry and doctors.  My genuine existence had been completely erased.  Half my life is over now, however I now have HOPE, and can live my genuine and authentic self now!
I hope my story, along with many other stories, is a lesson learned to all the doctors, psychiatrists, and parents out there.  You can read more about me here. 
We do not need fixed! Just let us be please.  Fix Society Please instead!  
 THREE CHEERS to the Self-Determination of our own Gender and Autonomy! 
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Some of my thoughts about the self-determination of gender, that you might be interested in: 
Fix Society I don't have gender dysphoria
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Human Rights · Intersex Awareness · Intersex Erasure · Prejudice · Relationships · Science · United Nations

The male/female binary is a Myth!

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I am a man, with a few boy parts, that most call girl parts. But that is only because they believe in lies. They are all boy parts if they are my parts, because I am a boy.  I might be non-conforming, but they belong to me, and my legal gender is male.  As for my biological sex, it is intersex, and not even acknowledged by my country . The government has erased me.  The doctors shoved me into the female box at birth.  My birth certificate to this day can not demonstrate my true biological sex.  I was not born dyadic, I was born intersex.

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I will feel human, when I get my human right to exist.  I will take on the name of a human, and not that of an alien, when my government allows me to exist without calling me a disorder.  I have a natural bodily variation, according to the United Nations.  I was never a disorder, or transgender even.  I was born a boy, from day one.

Our self-determination of gender is about human rights.  It is time this world stop hurting, and torturing people born intersex and transgender.  It is time this world stopped equating genitals, reproductive systems, hormones and chromosomes with our gender.  It is a lie, a myth, and scientific proof, show that I stand before you, and other intersex people stand before you, and all of us prove this myth 100% false.

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No chart is perfect, but I still like this one.  Shared from: www.ItsPronouncedMetrosexual.com
If a person realizes that “intersex” means countless Natural Bodily Variations and they mix this with the other categories, you literally can have countless varieties of human walking around this Earth!
If they #StopIGM and forcing us intersex people into binary boxes. (Intersex genital mutilation). It is obvious that genitals, chromosomes, hormones do not make up our #Gender.
The #UnitedNations says that our #SelfDetermination of gender is about #HumanRights!  #WEareREAL!  #WeArePeople!
#WeAreHUMAN!
It is time we bust the male/female #binary. It is simply a myth folks! Not everyone is born #Dyadic. Dyadic means you were not born #Intersex.

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Being rejected by my family because of what I represent when I speak up for my intersex cousin who was mutilated.

The two of us, born intersex and named ‘Antoinette’ at our birth.

The FEMALE PENIS and the MALE VAGINA; and explaining this to our children.

Seven Names for the SAME thing: Penis, Phallus, Clitoris, Phalloclitoris, Micropenis, Microphalus, and Clitoromegaly.

I was born with an Intersex body, but this does not create my Gender or my Sexual Orientation.

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Intersex People · Poems · Prejudice · Questions and Answers · Transgender

Poem: Over 50% would have died.

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Over 50% would have died.

I just survived what most would not have.

No I do not like this world.

It is a cruel and cold place for intersex people and transgender people.

Most would not have switched their gender to save their lives.

I can’t respect that.

I just survived what most wouldn’t have.

I sit here envying that death would have been easier for you.

I sit here wondering why I chose to survive this hell.

Most would not have switched their gender.

I can’t respect that.

I just survived what most wouldn’t have.

I sit here wondering if death would have been easier.

I sit here wondering why this Earth is so fucked up!

Why is it that over 50% would chose death, over saving their life like I did?

I am supposed to learn this and just sit here and do nothing.

I can’t respect that.

No, I will not sit here and do nothing!

Why is that?

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By Mx. Anunnaki Ray

April 5th, 2017

Why I wrote this poem:

This poem was written in response to finding out that over 50% of my friends and family would have died, like I would have if I had done nothing.  Yes, over 50% would have died, over saving themselves, like I did.  They would have refused to change their gender and how they appear to this world.  Please note that Sex and Gender are not the same thing.  When I refer to gender I refer to how we identify as male, female, both or neither.  When I refer to gender I am also talking about how this world perceives by our gender expression (how we dress or appear as to other).

To me gender is like our personality.  Sex has to do with genitals, reproductive systems, hormones and chromosomes.  Some people are born dyadic (typical bodies), and some people are born intersex.  Both dyadic and intersex people can have any gender.  I believe that the two do not, and will never be the same definition.  I believe that the self-determination of gender is a human right.

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