Chromosome Dysphoria is very real. I used to have it. Chromosome dysphoria, is when we are taught that only females can have XX chromosomes and males have XY chromosomes, and we believe this myth!
To those who do not know, according to most science dogma, 46XY would be the chromosomes for a typical male, and 46 XX would be the chromosomes for a typical female. (Note: Notice how I say “typical” and not “normal”. This is out of respect for myself and others born intersex and transgender. However, most would use the word “normal”.) This false belief has tried to erase intersex and transgender people from the face of the earth. I am here to teach the truth!
I was declared “female” at birth. To dare think I was simply XX chromosomes, caused me much dysphoria. I wanted this “Y” chromosome so bad I lied a few times! I actually would share, with a few, that I had a “Y” chromosome. You see, when I was a little boy I went to therapy to be taught I was a girl. It traumatized me! Therapy taught me I did not exist as a boy. It destroyed most of my life. Worse, since I was not a typical girl, I felt I could not exist as female either! Imagine that, feeling invisible most your life. I wrote this poem about it: Poem: Dear Dad, Invisible is no way to live.
It ended up, after being checked, that I am simply 46 XX. This means that I should now be called a 46 XX Intersex person. Most my life, due to having a higher testosterone level for a “female”, I slipped into a place of being misdiagnosed as a condition, syndrome, and disorder, most my life.
I finally dropped the diagnosis that labeled me a defect and a syndrome, and started to call myself intersex October of 2014. I wrote this about it: I am an Intersex Person, I never felt like a Cisgender person, and I relate to some transgender men. and Doctors call us a disorder, defect or syndrome when we are born. We are simply intersex.
As I listened and read about the others born intersex, I realized I had been lied to. So I wrote several other intersex activists, such as: Tiger Devore, Ph.D, Cary G. Costello, Ph.D., Pidgeon Pagonis, Hida Viloria, and Toni Briffa. I even wrote, Buck Angel, an amazing transexual man, and trans activist (Note: he refers to himself as transexual, even though most now use the term transgender).
Their response woke me up. I could EXIST as a person!
Later, with the help of Judi Herring, M.D., whom I have done a few public talks with; I realized I was not a disorder, or a syndrome! That I was born intersex; and yes, with self-determination, I was of the male gender, even if I was gender-nonconforming, and have two XX chromosomes. I no longer have chromosome dysphoria, gender dysphoria, or any form of dysphoria. I simply live in a world that is misinformed and has “cultural dysphoria”.
I now know that XX men exist, and XY women exist; and there are many of us!
This fourteen minute TEDx: “Gender Bound”, by Judi Herring, M.D. sums gender up well:
My autobiography: About Mx. Anunnaki Ray
Here is one by Cary Costello, Ph.D; Intersex Roadshow, that might interest you: