When I faced the streets alone
I looked up into the Florida winter sky
The stars seemed further away than usual
God nowhere to be found in my heart
I thought I was alone
I now know God was there
but not at the time
you see, boys don’t cry…
or do they?
Thankfully not too cold, but the breeze undeniable, even for Florida
I had a few men’s clothes back then…..I had my combat boots, ant pants and my Mesa Verde dark blue jacket on.
The beginning of a mustache
Would I be safer on the streets as a man?
At the time not wanting to burden my family with all the prejudice we would have to share if I stayed with them
So I left to face the
I had just received a landslide of family and friends abandoning me due to homophobia, transphobia, and accusing me I had lied and deceived them
Being born intersex did not save me from prejudice
I had no-one now
I even felt God had vanished
Walking out on my husband’s own homophobic and rage
No one cared how I was taking it….
you only asked how is my family taking it?
I had become an
One of the hardest things I ever faced was leaving my family, finding myself on the streets, and not one “friend” had a couch for me.
Maybe like a dog they feared
I would never leave their couch
Maybe they didn’t realize I could have died on the streets
Maybe they did not have the
I called one person who cared
The sun was not up yet
Then a gay man named John,
who helps runaway teens
picked me up off the side of the road
We talked for hours
With this man’s love
Thankfully my husband realized
the sky would not fall if he loved me,
his life partner,
I am certain if he had not
I would be
I will never forget
and no shelter
would give me a temporary home
they all said
By Mx. Anunnaki Ray Marquez
November 14th, 2019
For Transgender Awareness Week
November 13th to 19th, 2019