I have had pain with urinating for several years now, problems emptying my bladder, and outright bladder cramping due to spasms. These problems were happening even when I lived as an intersex woman. Now appearing and living as a man, the pain recently became so bad I was finally driven, by sheer desperation, to answers.… Continue reading My cancer scare: 46XX and born with a prostate!
On social media I receive this questions so decided to also turn my answer into a blog too: What about pubery blockers and surgery? I do believe that if the family and child have received informed consent, and know that any human being (endosex or intersex) can exist as man/boy, woman/girl, both or neither, that… Continue reading My thoughts: What about puberty blockers and surgery?
At six weeks, my skin felt the coldness and the sharpness of the steel scalpel, as it tore through my infant abdomen. Unformed and benign gonads, with their unfulfilled destinies, wreaking havoc on my newness. Brought into conscious existence unbeknown of my incompleteness; my cells deriving my complexities. The incision opens me up to all,… Continue reading Poem: SCARS By Sarah Hobbs | Intersex Survivor
For the greater good I have been used to teach your world better Like an alien visitor I have been abused I have be misused Sensationalized Criticized Scrutinized Like a Circus Side Show Friended and cracked open to be dropped after you are done with me Looked at under a microscope So alone For no… Continue reading Poem: Being used to help change this world.
My Thoughts for November: Transgender Awareness Month. Please pause when some in the psychiatric and medical complex want to diagnose people who are different or act against cultural standards. Not all psychiatrist or medical doctors are harmful, and many are there to help people. However, there are still some psychiatrist and doctors, who still do… Continue reading Stop diagnosing those you don’t agree with.
The Chalk Board that Anunnaki and His Husband James Made for Intersex Awareness Day 2015 | All the bad words I have been called. I was born intersex in 1967, and experts decided to raise me a girl in error. My mother would want me named Anthony. She was right in her intuition about my… Continue reading For Intersex Day of Solidarity and Remembrance 2020
My husband, my everything, my patron to all that I did and do my life for thirty years May be over soon Three to six months to live I can hardly breathe Life as we knew it is over and we thought we had it bad A Love that few understood Don't you dare shame… Continue reading My heart breaks but I have to be strong for him
If you are alive You obviously already know None of us escapes suffering Not even the weeds, the one cell organisms, or even the tree All of us die Perish then decay Energy transferring to different forms Molecularly still in movement And yet all emotionally connected to: We don't want to die, ever What is… Continue reading Poem: Life is Suffering for all Life
When I was transitioning and emancipating my true gender this helped me. If you feel you are falling apart, for any reason, here you go. Me: Hey God. God: Hello..... Me: I'm falling apart. Can you put me back together? God: I would rather not. Me: Why? God: Because you aren't a puzzle. Me: What… Continue reading You are not changing! You are Becoming! By John Roedel