They broke you so bad you can not love me now
Even after I pour love all over your broken heart
For twenty-eight months now – you even acted like you liked it
Then the blow
You tell me I am not what you would want
even if you could love now
You say you don’t need help
Maybe I did!
You even said I was not a true man!
While you seek out someone new to use!
Ah – So no matter I am fucked – thanks!
You broke my heart
Why did I even try?
This world is not mine
I said so before: this world is not
fucking mine
ah – I am not allowed to get angry when he left me for dead
How dare I say “fuck you!”
When you leave me for dead too
***
When I met you
He told me to be careful what you wish for
A warning from the other side
Why did I not listen better?
Because I thought my love could change you
When you said you had been sex abused as a child
I thought I was lovable
My love means NOTHING
I was so very wrong
My love for you didn’t change a damn thing
Why did I even try?
I thought you were different
But that pedophile broke you
And now you are the predator
***
I fall into a dark pit of despair
He left me cut in half when he died in my arms
And now you spit on that half
with the promise of only virtual friendship and a fake smile
Even after your brother spits on you!
Yes, you told me it can only be friendship
***
But I thought I would try
After you said “anything is possible”
You would say “we do not know the future”
You would say “idem” to my “I love you”
You kept me hooked with crumbs!
***
You claim nothing has changed
You never felt a thing for me
and that you can not love me better
No matter how much I loved you
***
A bad mix
My health is not good
A dark pit of despair
A broken heart
Your health is not good either
We are both disabled as fuck
***
You ask me
What will happen next?
The truth will set me free!
By Anunnaki R. Marquez
August 23rd, 2026
Updated October 20th, 2026
~.V.~
