I am lonely
I miss what I could never have
Living as a woman for the first forty-six years of my life
Robbed of who I truly am – the life I should have had
My straight husband loved me more a man
that put you into a rage so you hated him too
You treated him like shit. You broke him you bastard.
I sit here alone now. Cancer took it all away.
Wanting another Knight in Shinning Armor to rescue me
or is it me who rescues him? I am confused now.
Is it me who rescues her? Now I don’t know for sure.
I want to be loved for who I am
All broken
All fabulous
All HUMAN Alien!
His dying words said we were Knights at the round table,
He said I must live on!
Maybe all Pirate!
How can I feel human? This world erases me.
People in power and control erased me
and then they will punish who ever loves me
You ask, does this make you gay if you sex me?
The irony is when even LGBTQ people do not know I exist
When you would think it would be a gay man who would love me again – but is it?
I am so lonely it aches
Don’t tell me I need to learn how to live alone to be okay!
This is bullshit. I mastered living alone.
I mastered it, I say!
All my life I have felt like an alien visitor
So I hide a lonely pirate, or am I the Knight
as his dying words said?
By Mx. Anunnaki Ray Marquez
August 27th, 2023
~.V.~
My heart broke reading this post. I met you at a random gathering in Florida. Contact me if you want to talk about how I found a way to never be lonely again. ~Teresa❤️
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