My heart breaks but I have to be strong for him

My husband, my everything,

my patron to all that I did

and do

my life for thirty years

May be over soon

Three to six months to live

I can hardly breathe

Life as we knew it is over

and we thought we had it bad

A Love that few understood

Don’t you dare shame me for having fear

Don’t tell me we will be okay

when you are truly terrified

you may be wrong

If a bone marrow transplant

doesn’t save him

he will move on without me

he will move on without his children

no grand babies even

A family that deserted him

before now

he can’t move on

please save him

or I can not live

without

him

my heart breaks

but I have to

remain

strong

I make the choice to

remain

strong

but how

disabled?

By Mx. Anunnaki Ray Marquez

October, 13th, 2020

Please visit my husband: James’ Leukemia Caring Bridge

James’ Leukemia Fund Raiser for his family

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