This poem was written for Thanksgiving Day, here in the United States, 2015. I write this poem in honor of my gratitude that I survived, when too many are dying. This day I celebrated The Emancipation of my Spirit and my true Gender. Here is my Thanksgiving poem:
Breaking from the Kingdom of Isolation!
Some days the noise was so loud in my head. The cold winter storm was constantly in my mind. I couldn’t keep it in no longer, heaven knows I tried. Like magic, it looks like I am the Queen.
I am a “gay” man now. Silly how labels say things that make no sense.
Breaking from the Kingdom of Isolation!
I almost died.
I tried to not let you in. To not let you see!
Always trying to be the “good girl”, I felt like an alien to your world.
Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know. In my world, you have a frozen heart. Fear that once controlled me, can’t get to me no more. It’s time for me to emerge, to test the limits and break through. You no longer can rent space in my head.
Now you know, and I let it go.
Can’t hold it back anymore!
LET IT GO!
I turned away, and slammed the door! I don’t care what they are going to say! Let the storm rage on! The cold never bothered me anyway! It’s Funny how some distance makes everything seem small.
No one can control me now.
Your binary rules almost killed me!
I now test the limits of this binary.
I take back my Human right to be HUMAN back!
There are no rules for me now. Doctors and society can’t control me anymore. I am owning my life.
I was lied to! You are lied to!
Breaking from the Kingdom of Isolation!
I AM FREE!
LET IT GO!
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By Anunnaki Ray Marquez
November, 26th, 2015
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I dedicate this blog post to the amazing Heavy Metal Remake of
“Let it Go”- From Frozen; By Leo Moracchioli
I like how Leo Moracchioli is in a Pink little girl’s room in his video. There he is, a masculine man, doing a heavy metal remake of “Let it Go”, with a pink toy guitar! The irony of this paralleling my life, at the same time I was reclaiming my true gender, and having to face a world that might not understand me. This remake empowers me as I emerge into this world as my true self. If you look at the date he would post this on youtube it was Nov. 14th, 2014. I came out October 26th, 2014. This would be out just weeks after I emancipated my true gender identity.
A Huge thank you to Leo Moracchioli!
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In case you did not know. Here are the words to the original:
“Let It Go” – from Disney’s Frozen
The snow glows white on the mountain tonight, not a footprint to be seen. A kingdom of isolation and it looks like I’m the queen. The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside. Couldn’t keep it in, Heaven knows I tried. Don’t let them in, don’t let them see. Be the good girl you always have to be. Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know. Well, now they know!
Let it go, let it go! Can’t hold it back any more. Let it go, let it go! Turn away and slam the door. I don’t care what they’re going to say. Let the storm rage on. The cold never bothered me anyway.
It’s funny how some distance, makes everything seem small. And the fears that once controlled me, can’t get to me at all It’s time to see what I can do, to test the limits and break through. No right, no wrong, no rules for me. I’m free!
Let it go, let it go. I am one with the wind and sky. Let it go, let it go. You’ll never see me cry. Here I’ll stand, and here I’ll stay. Let the storm rage on.
My power flurries through the air into the ground. My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast I’m never going back; the past is in the past!
Let it go, let it go. And I’ll rise like the break of dawn. Let it go, let it go That perfect girl is gone Here I stand, in the light of day.
Let the storm rage on! The cold never bothered me anyway…
Songwriters
LOPEZ, ROBERT / ANDERSON-LOPEZ, KRISTEN / KIRIAKOU, EMANUEL
Mx. Anunnaki Ray Marquez 