Dear Little Boy, who I used to be,
Please do not believe the lies you were told. They convinced you that you were born wrong, that you would amount to nothing. They even convinced you that you would never be lovable as your authentic self.
They told you over and over, from the time you were three and four, that you could never be who you were born as. They erased your very being, and turned you into something that could never be. So stop wondering why you failed at being her! So stop blaming yourself, and doubting yourself. It is obvious they were the ones with the problem.
Today, you are surrounded by people who believe in you. They get angry now when they see you reflect the decades of lies, and when you say you are less than and you doubt yourself! They won’t put up with that shit anymore. They know you almost did not make it! They care my friend!
So, give yourself a damn break! Decades, and decades of abuse is now over! Their shit, was just that, a pile of stinking lies, that came from complete and utter nonsense.
I know you will not get restitution. No one broke the law! Yet, they almost got away with destroying your complete and total life!
But you my sweet one, will create your own restitution! You will help change this world, with others who were violated. You will help change this world, to stop the pain, the suffering and torture around assigning gender.
You can now show this world that you are bold, brave, and courageous! You can now tell your story about how after being spiritually, psychiatrically and physically demolished that you can survive hell, and still emerge from the dust and the ashes as a phoenix!
You can now show this world that they can be bold, brave, and courageous too!
The one’s who broke you, were the one’s who were wrong and did wrong! They are the one’s who have to change now!
Your only job now is to continue your journey, to shut the door on that past, yet never forget where you come from!
Your job now is to keep this tragedy from happening to another innocent little intersex or transgender child, and to promise to be their God Father and Guardian!
With much self love, flowing out to you, and over you, little boy. Feel that self love that you never felt before in your life, until now!
Fly butterfly! FLY! Your wings have finally dried! You are reborn from a mere caterpillar!
I know you can do it, because you are doing it!
Much love and confidence in you new friend!
Mx. Anunnaki Ray